To my husband on this Father’s Day, all I can say is, “thank you”. Thank you for loving me despite my faults, & being patient as we wait for our miracle. To my husband & all the husbands out there who are courageously standing by their wives as they battle infertility….Happy Father’s Day to you. ‘Daddies In Waiting’ are just as important and special as ‘Mommies In Waiting’. Here’s my salute to you…
Today I’d love to share with you our infertility journey. This journey is still ongoing, as we are still waiting for our “little blessings”. Although, our journey has been a long one (7+ years), we have learned so many amazing lessons along the way.
If you are in the process of “trying” to have a baby, or are knee-deep in fertility treatments, we understand what you’re going through. The process can be intrusive, unromantic, & extremely stressful.
Here’s our infertility journey including all the personal details that I know you’d be interested in (wink wink!), plus 7 Ways To Get Pregnant Naturally including some of my favorite fertility products. So, here goes…
Mother’s Day is a beautiful time of year. It’s a time when we come together to honor the ladies in our life that made us into the people we are today. It’s a wonderful time of celebration and thankfulness.
However, for some women, this time can be filled with feelings of failure and grief as we are reminded of the very thing that we lack but so desperately desire….to be a mother.
Today I’d like to speak to you Mommy’s At Heart for a minute. I’d like to encourage those of you today that long to be a mother so bad you feel it in your very core.
Here’s what I’d like to share with you today….
Going through difficulties in our life is inevitable. Coping during these deep, dark, life-altering days that change us forever, and learning to embrace our unique story, is the purpose of life, right? I’ve been through times like that, and had days when I thought I couldn’t go on. Today, I’d like to encourage you to embrace your story, even when it hurts by acknowledging your emotions; choosing grace over guilt; and walking in faith & hope.
Often times I am awoken at night, with this one question in my head, “when will I get to be a mom?”. The hopes and dreams of what our lives will look like swarm in my head, and it’s hard to then fall back asleep.
Swiftly thoughts of grandeur fill my mind…”we’ll have the most well behaved children, with Pottery Barn Kids styled rooms that will always be neat and tidy”…”our little boy will play hockey & our little girl will do ballet”….”we’ll take them to Disney World every year and go on adventures together”….and “it’ll be just perfect”.
Almost simultaneously, though, my mind is overtaken with negative thoughts like, “what if it never happens for us?” “Will he still be happy being my husband?” “Will I be satisfied with my life if I’m never a mother?” “I’m running out of time…I need to get this going right now!” “But, what if God for some reason doesn’t want us to have kids?” “What if there’s something we’re not seeing?”
Then I think about those empty rooms that still sit vacant across the hall…how we’ve struggled for almost 7 years now with this battle I’d quite honestly like to forget….and one of 2 things happen.