As 2017 is fast approaching, my mind has been reeling with everything I’d love to accomplish in the New Year. I’m a confessed serial goal setter, and barely ever see them to completion. I bet I’m not alone.
I love making New Years Resolutions. I love the feeling of a brand new beginning, and I love taking the time to jot down what I’d like to do, see, and conquer in the new year!
But, how do I…well…we 😉…make measurable goals that we can keep and actually get to check off our to do list at the end of the year?
Well, I went to “All-Knowing” Pinterest to find out, and I’ve got the answers for you here! So, let’s get started on our New Years Resolutions/Goals for 2017, & make it our best year yet!
I’ll never forget that first Christmas after I lost our first baby. I kept quite busy Christmas Eve baking, and decorating gingerbread houses, and watching Christmas movies with my hubby…much like every Christmas before and since. But, that year was different.
Just the other day, I about reached my breaking point. I sped in and out of the aisles at Target like I was racing for an Olympic medal, totally neglecting to notice the world around me. I ignored the Christmas decorations, the strands of lights, and the holiday carols that played overhead. I was in too much of a hurry to be bothered with it.
Often times I am awoken at night, with this one question in my head, “when will I get to be a mom?”. The hopes and dreams of what our lives will look like swarm in my head, and it’s hard to then fall back asleep.
Swiftly thoughts of grandeur fill my mind…”we’ll have the most well behaved children, with Pottery Barn Kids styled rooms that will always be neat and tidy”…”our little boy will play hockey & our little girl will do ballet”….”we’ll take them to Disney World every year and go on adventures together”….and “it’ll be just perfect”.
Almost simultaneously, though, my mind is overtaken with negative thoughts like, “what if it never happens for us?” “Will he still be happy being my husband?” “Will I be satisfied with my life if I’m never a mother?” “I’m running out of time…I need to get this going right now!” “But, what if God for some reason doesn’t want us to have kids?” “What if there’s something we’re not seeing?”
Then I think about those empty rooms that still sit vacant across the hall…how we’ve struggled for almost 7 years now with this battle I’d quite honestly like to forget….and one of 2 things happen.
Last year (2015), was what I consider to be my “Bucket List Busting Year”. After suffering a miscarriage the year before after 5 long years of infertility, I was approaching 2015 thinking it was going to be one of the worst years of my life. The constant reminders of what could have been were always on my mind.
I thought I would spend most of that year caught up in pregnancy reminders from apps on my phone, & devastated at every Thursday that passed as I counted down the weeks to my impending “almost” due date, July 4th.
Instead, much to my surprise, I had one of the best years of my life thanks to the Grace of God and the prayers of family and friends.
My Journey to Mommyhood has been long and hard. Patience, after all, is not one of my virtues. (Clearly God is trying to teach me a lesson on that!) 😉
But, one thing I’ve learned along the way, is not to put things off for your fertility…
There’s a verse that has been on my mind lately. I saw this verse recently on Instagram of all places and have had it saved on my phone for a while now. I was reminded of it the other day when I was, according to this verse, acting very foolish…
“The wise woman builds her house, but the foolish tear it down with her own hands.” Proverbs 14:1
Its an amazing responsibility we have, as the women in our households, to either build up our homes with encouragement, safety, and love…or do the exact opposite and tear it down with judgement, sarcasm, and anger.
Oh, my friends. I would love to share what’s on my heart with you today. It’s hard to know where to start. Quite frankly…I’m overwhelmed. I’m overwhelmed with shock, grief, dismay, worry, uncertainty, fear…