To my husband on this Father’s Day, all I can say is, “thank you”. Thank you for loving me despite my faults, & being patient as we wait for our miracle. To my husband & all the husbands out there who are courageously standing by their wives as they battle infertility….Happy Father’s Day to you. ‘Daddies In Waiting’ are just as important and special as ‘Mommies In Waiting’. Here’s my salute to you…
As far back as I can remember, I wanted to be a nurse.
I had an aunt who was a nurse, and she would share the most amazing, cooky stories with me. She was such an interesting person, and I loved being around her. I knew I wanted to grow up and be a nurse just like her.
I muddled my way through college, eventually making it into a nursing school program. Nursing School was probably the most stressful time in my life. Between exams, clinicals, care plans, and so on I felt like I barely had time to breathe, let alone eat or sleep.
I remember leaving the campus for one last time after my final exam, and just crying all the way to my car. The relief was immeasurable. I couldn’t believe I’d finished nursing school.
I thought the hardest part of my nursing career was behind me. And, boy was I wrong.
In honor of Nurses Week, and to all the many wonderful nurses I’ve had the privilege to work alongside, I’m sure you will agree with me that being a nurse is a calling. It is a work of heart, that is not to be taken lightly.
Here are 5 Things I Wish I Would’ve Known Before Becoming A Nurse….
Going through difficulties in our life is inevitable. Coping during these deep, dark, life-altering days that change us forever, and learning to embrace our unique story, is the purpose of life, right? I’ve been through times like that, and had days when I thought I couldn’t go on. Today, I’d like to encourage you to embrace your story, even when it hurts by acknowledging your emotions; choosing grace over guilt; and walking in faith & hope.
Do you ever wonder what your purpose is? What you were put on earth to do and be? I wholeheartedly believe that we all are given special talents and gifts that can be used to help others. But, what do we do when we are at a loss for how to live with purpose, and focus on our goals and ambitions? Lets explore this together, and take a journey to find our “why”.
Often times I am awoken at night, with this one question in my head, “when will I get to be a mom?”. The hopes and dreams of what our lives will look like swarm in my head, and it’s hard to then fall back asleep.
Swiftly thoughts of grandeur fill my mind…”we’ll have the most well behaved children, with Pottery Barn Kids styled rooms that will always be neat and tidy”…”our little boy will play hockey & our little girl will do ballet”….”we’ll take them to Disney World every year and go on adventures together”….and “it’ll be just perfect”.
Almost simultaneously, though, my mind is overtaken with negative thoughts like, “what if it never happens for us?” “Will he still be happy being my husband?” “Will I be satisfied with my life if I’m never a mother?” “I’m running out of time…I need to get this going right now!” “But, what if God for some reason doesn’t want us to have kids?” “What if there’s something we’re not seeing?”
Then I think about those empty rooms that still sit vacant across the hall…how we’ve struggled for almost 7 years now with this battle I’d quite honestly like to forget….and one of 2 things happen.
There’s a verse that has been on my mind lately. I saw this verse recently on Instagram of all places and have had it saved on my phone for a while now. I was reminded of it the other day when I was, according to this verse, acting very foolish…
“The wise woman builds her house, but the foolish tear it down with her own hands.” Proverbs 14:1
Its an amazing responsibility we have, as the women in our households, to either build up our homes with encouragement, safety, and love…or do the exact opposite and tear it down with judgement, sarcasm, and anger.